Life

I find myself frequently looking back at my life. So many things have changed. So many things I wish I could go back and do over differently. I can't help but realize that so many of the bad decisions I made have drastically impacted my life as it is now. I do understand that it isn't wise to dwell on past mistakes, but if I had done it more often growing up I might have actually learned from those mistakes a lot faster. One of the biggest mistakes I ever made still affects me. I can change but it is extremely hard.

I really regret giving up piano. I will start again. That is one of my biggest regrets. I should have sat up straighter like my parents told me, because if i had i wouldn't have a hunch back now. Many, many things I would change.

If I hadn't moved so often I could have had a friend in whom I could confide anything in. That is something i truly wish i had. It is one of the things that makes me extremely lonely. My nature is to help others with their problems, not spill my own to them. Too many times I have been burned because people see me as a freak, or a stalker, because of my friendliness. I have been called gay, a pervert, and many other undesirable titles. The worst was when someone I had considered a close friend, and truly believed was, turned out to actually consider me many of the above mentioned things. It does have much to do with small town mentality, the unwritten law that says anyone who didn't grow up here is an outcast, or can never truly be one of them. Small minded people.

Though if I hadn't moved here I would never have met many of the friends I have today. They have been like a blanket of comfort at times, at others I have messed up horribly. I tend to act rashly and without thinking. I have gained and lost friends, all while being in this town. What shocked me is, when I reconnected with old friends I hadn't seen in years, it seemed like it had only been yesterday. They welcomed me back like I had been there the whole time. I was so concerned that I would still be an outsider even in my old hometown, but those fears were unfounded.

I don't often get the chance to talk to all those whom I am close to. My older brother is away at his own college. My younger brother I never see. Two of my sisters I never get the chance to talk to, and my oldest sister doesn't want to talk to us anyways (not that i care about that). The friends I have made in this town are all scattered about now, and my old friends are the same. I am always on the move for work, and I am just now starting to get active again (a long needed change).

I know that this is life, and it happens to everybody. I suppose that since I didn't have the same kind of childhood as others my age, what with the moving and all, and the lack of interest in many of the things they were interested in, I am wanting to hold on more. I like things that many kids like, and am always told I need to act more like an adult in the things I like and do. It's not regressing because I never was that way. I suppose I am subconsciously making up for it now.

I just wanted to get all that down. Sometimes it seems too much, but I will survive. I always do. :)

The Ramblings of an Inadequate Writer

I am driven mad by people who write things as fact and in all reality are just stating their own ideas. I tend to get irrationally angry at times by this. I can understand the weak minded, or those who just do not know any better. But when someone who claims to be a professional writer and even has a degree in journalism steps up to the plate and fails miserably, then I am truly upset.

Gia Manry, a supposed professional writer, or more specifically a pop culture writer, is a person whom I loathe. She writes reviews in which she bashes anything she thinks is ridiculous. I can understand that. I tend to do that myself some of the time. She claims to have a degree in journalism and a minor in creative writing. Well, the number one rule of journalism is to get the facts. Journalists do not print their opinions, they print the facts. This insult to the writing community posted her thoughts on the action flick Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time. I would like to point out two major flaws she made in her rush to critique what she apparently saw as lack of creativity.

In her article she posted, and i quote: "Hassansin Is A Dumb Name
Let me break this down for you: Hassan is a fairly common Arabic name. So when you have a group of highly-skilled assassins and you need to make them sound vaguely middle-eastern, what do you do? You combine “assassin” with “Hassan” for “hassansin.” Excuse me while I vomit in the hassansink."

Point number one: Hassansin is not a dumb name. Neither is it something the movie writers merely made up. She just decided that since it's such an "obvious" fake that it must be true! Wrong! What Miss Manry could have discovered with a quick bit of research is that, contrary to her misconception, we get the term assassin from the ancient Persian elite warriors known as the hassansins or the hashanshins. They did exist though not in the overblown way that Prince of Persia portrays. Look it up people. It's quite simple. We get most of our words from old terms like this. It's a simple matter of looking it up. What irritates me is that when you Google the word hassansin the first article that appears is the one i just quoted. Sadly most people will stop there and just believe that it was all made up. That is what irritates me more than anything.


She also posted this: (quote) Jake Gyllenhaal Is Not Persian
I heard a lot of people whining about how Jake Gyllenhaal doesn’t look the least bit Persian. Prior to knowing more about the film, this seemed silly to anyone who’s read about royal harems: in Persia, Turkey, and other middle-eastern areas, the royal harem was filled largely with foreign women who had been gifted or kidnapped; as such, Persian royalty and even the upper classes were often filled with those of multicultural backgrounds.

Point number two: While it is always better to make the actors look the part, Persia does not even exist anymore. You can get a Persian to play a Persian in a movie because they don't exist!

There are several points I could cover, but I think I have made my point. Gia Manry is a disgrace to the writing community with her lack of research into subjects which she writes about in detail. She writes as if she knows exactly what she speaks of, and yet she does not. People that lead others into ignorance are the worst of society. Right up there with politicians. Miss Manry needs to stick to writing about Anime, because that is just about all she is good at doing. Even then, I shudder to think of what plots she has written on that were taken from something else, because she is likely to do the same. Get the facts, Miss Manry.

For the full article: www.fanboy.com/.../hassansin-is-a-dumb-name-and-other-prince-of-persia-revelations.html -